bipolar, at the same time

sometimes now
i'm achieving this nice
new state:

instead of mood
SWINGS

i'm having the "bad" feelings
and underneath them,
making them as if carried
by something more
"real"

i'm having the ongoing feelings
of the thrill
of being alive

the joy
of the moment

the delight
in what is now

and curiosity
about
what is
going to happen
next

all the while
the "crappy" stuff's
in there too

just like
some kind of log
floating up
and down
in an
ocean

oh,
well