The Joy of Divorce

I am deepening and broadening my work.

I will be including the Anat Baniel method of working in
groups and privately with people to upgrade their nervous systmes
to undo pain,
transcend limitations,
become more young, free and intelligent in their bodies

AND

the work of Byron Katie
to transform
pain, hurt, anger, resentment and confusion
into
peace, freedom, joy, love and happiness

AND

the "not really work"
more the life path
of Being Present

to help us all recall the everypresent
present
as a way out of suffering
and
into pleasure, creativity, potency, and lifelong vitality

AND

some work/ play/ discovery I've taken
from Gestalt Therapy
and refined to make a marvellous path
to taking the juice away
from both our Inner Critic
and our Inner Victim
and bringing it back
to the calm, happy, smart and loving Real Self
who is us
without the baggage

AND

Conscious Communication
patterned on Speaking Circles,
with the goal and pleasure
of real talking
real listening
being present in both ends of the conversation
and the delight of all that

So, I'll say more on this here tomorrow,
but I wanted to get started

If you are a sister of mine,
or someone who might want to write an old fashioned letter
to me:
my new address is to the right.

Good.

the importance of love

sometimes people we love are angry with us

oh, well

that's their job, just then: to be angry

it's almost always because they are feeling raw and hurt and bruised
inside

and are being mean to themselves inside

and imagine that we are being mean to them

and hey, sometimes we are

and sometimes we aren't

and hey, hey
they are angry
and they either get over it
or don't

and we can just
keep on loving

good

all things end

the month
ends
the move
almost,
almost
ends

we are in a new
house

quiet
full of light
not much stuff
yet
it's all in boxes

good
let it stay there

no
no
maybe courage is
called for

open the damn things
see what's there
and send it off
into someone else's
connection

this is a metaphor,
undoubtedly
for something
sweet and true

now,
just the good old fashioned
wisdom:

lug stuff around all day
get tired
enjoy
sleep

Skinny Wednesday

Studley Street, so far
so good,
and time to
change seasons, and places, it seems

today
Marlie and I
go to look at a couple of
possible
new places to live

(see Loving Your Enemy
for the non gory
details)

anyway
this is "hard"
without the
the Work
you know:
is it true that it's a drag to move?
how and who am i when i go with that story?
who and how am i when i don't go with that story?
what's the turn a round?

and with the work
and the
turn
a
round

life is
pretty sweet,
an adventure
of one unknown now
after another
crashing up
on the shores
of our awareness

hmmm

so,
curious
excited,

and,
the lazy baby in me:
not looking forward
to dealing with all my stuff
and
even
there

to the rescue,
the work:

half turn around:
willing to deal with my stuff,

looking forward
to dealing with my stuff
the whole turn

and what a sweet one
that is
isn't it?

Leaving Sonoma, 1

Ah, so sad.

And is that true?

All good things come to an end,
and some things aren't just right,
for various reasons:
people grow,
the other person doesn't.

People change and
the place changes the opposite way.

When I came to Sonoma
it was much more rural
much more small town
much more influenced by creative,
artistic,
land oriented people
of the nonslick variety.

I started a beautiful garden
with the name
Pauline Bond Community Garden,
that got changed
to Garden Park
and my goals
of a spiritual, and deeply ecological
place
have been either dropped or watered down.

For two years
I've been offering
work that can transform people's lives,
and help open up amazing possibilities.

It is out of the box,
not a big strain big gain
look sexy kind of thing.

People have stuck to their ruts,
not taken advantage of this work.

Young people,
dancers,
really creative people
thrive on this.
Somehow Sonoma doesn't seem to have enough
of this,
nor enough bicycle riders,
nor enough home gardeners
nor people willing to forgo sugar and wheat
and study what Price Pottenger has to offer,
people excited to apply Permaculture
to their land and their lives,
people excited by the miraculous possibilites of The Feldenkrais Method
and the Anat Baniel Method.

The shift to crowded
and yuppie,
the emphasis on wine, wine, wine,
land values,
the next event,
party,
happening,
wine tasting,
food testing,
nice froth,
becoming the second Aspen,
so cool,
so slick
and

yet:
where is the slow
life
the aware life,
the life
without the cell phone
and the wine glass
and the rapid fire
empty words?


So maybe I'll leave,
we'll leave,
and yet,
to leave without
love and
gratitude
would be crazy,
harsh to myself,
and to my life now.

As long as I'm here,
loving what is,
means loving Sonoma.



So,
hello Sonoma,
i love you while i'm here,
and when i leave,
goodbye Sonoma,
i'll love you, too,
and love another
new place as well:

ciao,
love,
learning,
laughter

Chris