Losing Bets, hot day, ha ha

one of the great losing
bets is this:

that the past
"should have"
been different

maybe "should have"
can be clung to
as a concept with which
to torture ourselves

but what's the reality
of the past??


the past is stuck
finished
and complete

we can change its effects
we can imagine a different way
of reacting than we did
but
undoing
the past:

huge losing bet


and another
huge
losing bet:

that the weather
"should" be different

if
"it's"
hot,
as it appear to be
now
hot wind
hot night
hot day
la
la

wanting it different
complaining that it should be different
demanding to God
or each other that it "should" be different....

another grand
losing
bet

la
la