It's Early and I'm Late

Maybe I'm late
maybe i'm write here
right here
right
hear

listen
to the sounds
of fingers
typing
cars driving
birds birding
breath breathing

what are
you doing
now

do you know
how easy
it is
to love yourself
in
the present

how easy
it is
to love another person
in
the
present

if
yes
good

if no
practice

love
is an action

life
is movement

thought is movement

life is good

put all the pieces together
then
drop
the puzzle
and live

love
you

all you readers
and non readers
you

learning

learning
and
love

if we can be
in one
or
the
other,
we've got a great life

if we're
hanging out in both
we've got
an
amazing life


this is my wish for
you
and
hey, why not?,
this is my wish for me:
an amazing life

....

and so:
learning

yesterday,
in spite of working
quite a bit
on the various
"issues"
my mind
has decided to "struggle"
with,
and having fairly
fine success
in this work
since i was doing the
grand
and glorious Work of Byron Katie,
I found myself
a bit depressed
as I was
driving down
for a supervision / advanced
class in the
Anat Baniel Method

and getting there a bit
late
I got thrown right into the lesson:

sit on a chair,
put the left ankle on the right knee,
hold the left foot with the right hand
and the left knee with the left hand
and come from sitting
to standing

this is fun
and in my funk
I couldn't quite do this

which was good

because then when we got to
the floor
and did this and that
for the wonderful neurological
upgrading that happens when
you do the Feldenkrais work
or the Anat Baniel Method work

and the upgrading
which is about learning
and
realizing ways of connecting I'd forgotten
and
expanding my options
and
softening parts of me that were interfering by overworking
and
coming to the sweetness
of now
and the sweetness
of
learning

and double rainbow:
learning takes place
and when
we go back to the chair,
I can stand with one leg folded up
as described above
and

that other rainbow:
no more depression

life is
always
fun
when we are learning

(and even if John McCain
is trying to ruin
the word "fun"
by describing his campaign
as fun,
since maybe lying and being
in a completely delusional world
is fun
still
fun
is a good sign we are doing
something right,
especially if it isn't the jump
up and down
and thrash around fun
many confuse
with fun)

la
la

my and my opinions

oh,
well

the glory and sweetness of life

windows of life, on life,
in life

Life is long and hard.
Life is short and simple.
Life is long and simple.
Life is long and hard.

All of these could be true, all could be false.

What is this moment?

Here’s a clue, to me and you: it is neither hard, nor soft.
It= life.
And, as living being we are either,
breathing in or
breathing out,
or pausing,
or (and this happens a bit more than
we might wish) tensing between breaths.

Life is knowing this,
or not knowing this.

Life is knowing
or not knowing
about our arms and legs, and spine,
the ribs,
our pelvis,
our ribs,
the pelvis,
the sound of whatever is
sounding
right now.

for me
click click of keyboard,
for you,
??????

what is your music now?
what does your heart wish for?

can we have a wish
and make is sweet
not pretending that it is already here
not desparing that it is not yet here
just sweet
to be now
and sweet to be in a possibility
of some sweeter unfolding
in life

and sometimes that unfolding
comes most
when we wish so little
that it doesn't even seem like
a wish
except it is,
the wish to be connected
one
with
ourselves
with
now
with
life

with
Life


la, la

And this is sweet.

Seems so simple, so maybe life is simple, and yet
we make it so complicated, we have so many requirements before we’ll let ourselves come to the simple nowness of each moment:
• we have a lot of stuff to do
• we have clocks that are telling us to hurry
• we have minds that are telling us to hurry because the clocks says whatever it says
• we have other people’s expectations we are worried about
• we have our own expectations that we are worried about
• we have obligations, some quiet worthy and noble, some added on for reasons that we all know aren’t so entirely noble
• we have our habits, our routines, our ruts
• and so on


And so what?

In any moment, we can be here with our breathing, with our connection to gravity, with our awareness of light and sound.

We can feel at ease inside, our minds and our bodies.
And if not as at ease as we wish, we can
learn
just what
or sort of what
is stopping us.

And in our looking
in the moment,
we
will always find
a sweetness we may or
may not
have been expecting.

This is amazing.
Maybe I’ll remember this today. Maybe you will too.
Good sweet luck to us all.